BPD/EUPD: The Facts

(TW: Suicide, Self-harm) Happy New Year, gang. How is everyone doing? For those of us in the UK we’re in Lockdown again. It’s a funny old time isn’t it? I’m technically homeless. The house I was isolating in has been sold, and time is ticking down for me to find somewhere to live. Luckily myContinue reading “BPD/EUPD: The Facts”

‘New Year New Me’ Can Fuck Right Off

We’re coming to the end of the toughest year of many of our lives. Firstly, con-grat-u-fucking-lations you’ve made it this far. However you managed it, you’ve smashed it. Now, the idea that because the Earth has completed another rotation around the Sun we need to ‘shed’ our old selves and become a totally new personContinue reading “‘New Year New Me’ Can Fuck Right Off”

My Name’s Meg & I’m an Alcoholic

Sunday’s daily meditation theme on my Calm app was Loneliness. I am absolutely petrified of loneliness. I don’t mean being on my own, I mean the feeling of loneliness. Some of the places I have felt the loneliest were when I was surrounded by people. The feeling that no one notices (or cares) that you’reContinue reading “My Name’s Meg & I’m an Alcoholic”

I’m Just Not Drinking Again

When I started this blog, I never thought I would be readdressing my drinking. I’d tried to quit before, many times, the first and longest stint was from Jan 2018 to March 2019. Everytime I fell back off the wagon I resigned myself to the fact that this was my life. I wasn’t a quitterContinue reading “I’m Just Not Drinking Again”

I’m Just Not Drinking Today

Today is the first day I’ve sat down to do some work all week. I had such a busy and strong week last week. It felt great. However, at the start of this week, I went on a bender. Two days of heavy day and night drinking. Once it ended, I was an anxious mess,Continue reading “I’m Just Not Drinking Today”

A List to Save and Use When You Aren’t Feeling Yourself

Inject me with all that wellness shit. Seriously, warm up a plate, rack it up and I will snort the fuck out of anything wellness right now. Spotify wellness playlist? Hell yeah. Sign up to the Calm app? OH YEAH. Following all the accounts focused on self-love? Fuck. Yeah. Today I feel like I amContinue reading “A List to Save and Use When You Aren’t Feeling Yourself”

You Don’t Owe Anyone Anything

Read that again. Once more: You. Don’t. Owe. Anyone. Anything. You don’t owe them sex. You don’t owe them a conversation. You don’t owe them an education. You don’t owe them pretty. I’m reading the book ‘Women don’t owe you pretty’ by Florence Given. Which inspired me to pen the below. Its popular starter feminism,Continue reading “You Don’t Owe Anyone Anything”

Getting Realistic With My Self-Care

Self-care. Face masks. Baths. Wine. Holy fuck, I love that shit. Yet am I doing it properly? If there is a proper way to do it. ‘It’ being self-care. Facemasks aren’t going to solve the problems in your soul. Baths don’t wash away unresolved trauma. Nonetheless they beat smashing in cocaine and vodka sodas inContinue reading “Getting Realistic With My Self-Care”